Self-sabotaging is a very common behavior. Just when things are about to get good, do you wreck it for yourself? I have done this numerous times. It all boils down to low self-esteem and low self-worth. You believe it is too good to be true. Even though, you want these good things or amazing people in your life, somehow you are not able to accept this for yourself. It may seem foreign to you. You may not know how to handle a great relationship or things going well, because it is unfamiliar to you. Although, you know it is wrong, you feel familiar and more comfortable with tumultuous relationships and drama. Are you your own worst enemy? Are you wanting to improve your life, but make choices that would show the opposite?
I recently bumped into someone that was so excited about improving her self-worth. I looked at her and I could not help but share in her excitement. She was on the right path. She seemed stronger and happier, but then she proceeded to tell me that she got back together with her ex-boyfriend. She was so close to improving that area or her life and then she self-sabotages it and regresses.
I can’t even tell you how many times the two of them have broken up and gotten back together. Clearly, their relationship is not meant to be. People who tend to self-sabotage tend to make excuses and justify their behavior. She said that she was learning lessons. Well you cannot argue with that. But hasn’t she already learned these lessons by now? From the outside, looking in…the message seems clear. But I guess when it comes to the matter of the heart, somehow your heart distorts these valuable lessons.
It doesn’t have to be so difficult
I personally haven’t read this book, but I love the title and I love the concept. The title is It’s Called a Break-Up Because It’s Broken. Those few words would stick with me throughout my life and relationships. If you keep breaking up there is a reason. You only get back together because time has passed, you got stronger and you are only remembering the good things. Now, knowing better, I have realized that life does not need to be so difficult and a struggle. I only thought that was how it was supposed to be, because that is all that I had ever known. I could never image that life and love could be so easy. You shouldn’t have to “force” your relationships, friendships or any area in your life to work. When you are following your natural rhythm and flow of the universe, your life will be full of ease, happiness and abundance.
Don’t give up
If you are trying to break a bad habit or pattern, it can be difficult at first. This is when you are at your greatest risk of self-sabotaging. You may fail at first and become discouraged, but it is important to not give up. Be kind to yourself. This has been your only way or life, and now you are changing your way of thinking, behaving and natural tendencies? Don’t give up. It will get easier, as you get used to your new and improved way of life.
Procrastinating and Self-Sabotaging
Procrastination can be a sign of self-sabotaging. You may put off things that can offer you growth and reach your greater potential. Don’t get in your own way of amazing things. Push yourself and take action towards the better life you deserve.
In the end, you are responsible for your own life and your own choices. Your greatest life and happiness is just around the corner. Make a choice today to no longer self-sabotage and make healthier decisions that leads to your bliss. You deserve only the best!
Hi Trina: All the alarms went off in my head after reading your article. I can relate to self sabotage, after years of verbal and physical abuse by my father. I never felt worthy of kindness or love. Because the person I admired the most would be so abusive. When someone tried to show me love, I would try and figure out why on earth would anyone want to love me. I still suffer from low self-esteem but, trying my hardest to stay positive and happy. My husband is my rock and supports me 100%. With the support groups that I have aligned myself with, I now feel the love I deserve from the group.
Hi Janice: I am sorry that you had to go through such abuse. I can completely relate to your situation and understand the tremendous impact it can have. It sounds like you have done a lot of work to undo the damage. It can be a constant struggle to repair low self-esteem. It is horrible that someone who is supposed to love you unconditionally can treat you poorly. You are very lucky to have an amazing husband to show you the love that you deserve. Also it is great that you have love from your support group. I am always here if you need me also. Love you lots. xo